Tonight,
will be my second last day sleeping in this room. awhh. i didnt expect it could be this sad. emo terlebih pula ni.
ive been sleeping in this corner for the past 10 yrs. all those memories, tears, laughter, airliur basi,
i still cant believe we're moving out already. no more padang bulat. no more desa at midnight. cannot go out last last minute. no more going to gym 10 mins before class starts. dammmmnnn. senang cerita, tak boleh nak janji melayu sgt lah lepas ni kan. lol.
if only my campus is in Shah Alam, it would be more than perfect. unfortunately its not. i decided to stay and finish my Dip which will still be at Klang Lama, Thnk God. but i heard we wont be so lucky in part5 though. SIGH. well, we just hv to suck it up ppl !
i wish all the best to those who will be transferring to Degree next sem. i knw you have your own reasons. nevertheless, we're going to miss ya!
on the other note,
personal life has been better lately. but i dnt think dad's and my feelings are mutual. =| and this really suck. how am i suppose to make both sides happy? i know dada is way more important to me, but . . the othr side could make me happy too. damn.
i hate when this happens. bak kata org ; ''cinta terhalang''. HAHAH.
blergh. i dnt knw whats right now. who`s right. which is right. yet another fickling-minding moment. PFFT.
oklah, better get to sleep. tmr is going to be a looooooooooooooooong day.
- Location:roomy
- Mood:
confused - Music:Dont Speak - No Doubt
im starting to
shit.
is this good ? or bad ?
Year 2007,
i made a mistake.
i made the decision to do it.
so,
i got to accept the consequences.
but you were there to help me get through it.
now,
Year 2009,
you made a mistake.
you yourself made the decision to do it,
so,
you have to accept the consequences.
is it my turn now to be there for you?
does that make us equal now?
is this a God test, on you? and me?
what is He trying to show us?
what is He trying to tell me?
How i wish i know . . .
and escape from all this confusion and doubts.
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frst thngs frst ; ALHAMDULILLAH. All the hard work paid off. and seriously thnx to Fika and Wney for the last min study group. without them i dnt think i could score this sem. im so grateful to have you guys as my classmates aww. :)
next, now im not so excited about moving sudahh. PFFT. malas pula nak kemas kemas, and angkat angkat barang. haish. i just want to move. boleh tak barng barang tu gerak sndr? -_-'
on the other note,
i am so bloody confuse with myself. i hate being in this situation where i dnt knw what i want. i cant be selfish. i cant think of my feelings only. i cant just care about what i want and what i need , kan. baahhh. im sorry. i dnt want to be a cruel person.
- Location:roomy
- Mood:
grateful - Music:No promises -
okay people. i need a small bitsy tiny favor from you guys. pls VOTE FOR ME! hehehe.
if kita menang, ill belanja you one baju frm there! ha! hows that sound? good kan? ;D
so now, click to this link - kitschen.com/blog/
and look for my picture . . ..
and.... VOTE ! VOTE !
you know i sayang korang semua kannnnn. :)
THANK YOU <3
if kita menang, ill belanja you one baju frm there! ha! hows that sound? good kan? ;D
so now, click to this link - kitschen.com/blog/
and look for my picture . . ..
and.... VOTE ! VOTE !
you know i sayang korang semua kannnnn. :)
THANK YOU <3
today i went out with the mom, sister and dua budak kecik who are my cousins. this dua budak kecik is definitely different frm others. you will not hear a single word from them. the good thing is that, tak susah nak handle. heh. but believe me its veeeery hard to get them somthng. nak tanye flavor ice cream pon x dpt. fuhh. babysitting can be tiring......
shoppi-ing with the a new Boyfriend ;)
comel tak si dia? haha.
comel tak si dia? haha.
and yes, this is the dua budak kecik. meet Akif and Aliaa.
I believe it will be a very long time until i have my own kids. hahah. i am so not up for that yet. then came back, thought of going to the gym, but hey guess what?
terus pengsan. haha. menjaga mereka adalah lebih memenatkan drpd working out. danng. and that is why im going to celebfitness frst thing in the morning tmr, insyaAllah. lama doh x pergi. thanks to the flu yg tak baik baik. pfft.
ish, knp gila lembab cerita nih nak habis buffer. sabar aje lah.
on the other note, life has been . . . a bit of kelam kabut here and there. its been awhile since i had a gossiping session with the girlfriends. and oh yes, i miss my classmates too. ye ye je before cuti byk plans, masa cuti semua senyap. CEHH. haha.
i think i could watch the videos now. hope to hear frm you guys soon.
:)
terus pengsan. haha. menjaga mereka adalah lebih memenatkan drpd working out. danng. and that is why im going to celebfitness frst thing in the morning tmr, insyaAllah. lama doh x pergi. thanks to the flu yg tak baik baik. pfft.
ish, knp gila lembab cerita nih nak habis buffer. sabar aje lah.
on the other note, life has been . . . a bit of kelam kabut here and there. its been awhile since i had a gossiping session with the girlfriends. and oh yes, i miss my classmates too. ye ye je before cuti byk plans, masa cuti semua senyap. CEHH. haha.
i think i could watch the videos now. hope to hear frm you guys soon.
:)
- Location:roomy
- Mood:
blank - Music:Come Home - One Republic
anyways, at least ive done some shopping. damnn, it felt sooooooooooooo good. sumpah lama gila dah tak shopping mcm tu. i almost spent up to 300 bucks. there go all my duit raya yg tinggal frm 'other expenses'. Sigh. after this, i have to get my priorities straight. i must know wht i want, and wht i deserve. all this while, i dnt know wht , where, why i save my money for. but it definitely didnt get me no where. i kept on wearing my old boring clothes. its time to change damn it.
i want wht i want, and wht i deserve.
hoho. i sound very selfish. but who cares yaw. this time, its for me. no body else.
i want to be a somebody someday. that is my goal. my resolution for 2010 perhaps? HAHA. gila x boleh blah.
but for now, im gona take things slowly, one at a time. to feel every moment of it. agree? ;)
oh and yes, we had fun cam-whoring in the Kitschen fitting room. its very a sister-bonding-moment. i recommend for siblings to do this too. ;)
- Location:roomy
- Mood:
calm - Music:Obssesed - Mariah Carey
check this E-boutique out.
looking for stylish and trendy , this is the place.
and to support my friend too :)
http://glampaparazzi.blogspot.com/
THANK YOU
looking for stylish and trendy , this is the place.
and to support my friend too :)
http://glampaparazzi.blogspot.com/
THANK YOU
nak jadi cantik pon kene sakit. haha. perempuan.. perempuan..
anyhow,
life has not been on the good side lately. although exams are over, but im still feeling very stressful. not because of exams obviously, its somethng else. but i am so glad this thng happened after my finals are over. if not, there will be a high possibility that i would repeat one paper. SIGHH.
i cant wait for this to end. i want it t end. time, please tick faster.
im tired of acting.
so the next thing to look forward to on this hols is, MOVING ... yeaaaahhh. cant wait.
moving in to a new place, feels like - a reborn. i shall go in to this later, when the time has come.
for now, im just going to cherish every moment that i have, with you. =|
- Location:roomy
- Mood: blank
- Music:-
Take a breath, take it deep
Calm yourself, he says to me
If you play, you play for keeps
Take a gun, and count to three
I’m sweating now, moving slow
No time to think, my turn to go
And you can see my heart beating
You can see it through my chest
And I’m terrified but I’m not leaving
Know that I must must pass this test
So just pull the triggerSay a prayer to yourself
He says close your eyes
Sometimes it helps
And then I get a scary thought
That he’s here means he’s never lost
As my life flashes before my eyes
I’m wondering will I ever see another sunrise?
So many won’t get the chance to say goodbye
But it’s too late too pick up the value of my life
- Location:roomy
- Mood:
depressed - Music:Russian Roulette - Rihanna
I never felt so good like this before. frankly speaking, this semester is the most stressful sem ever, compared to my 1st and 2nd one. perhaps the subjects are gettng tougher? or maybe... its a new place? or maybe because some lects gave me a pretty hard time to catch up with the topics and all. SIGH.
anyhow, im so glad that it is finished and done with. although, i know i did pretty badly on some papers. haih. takpelah. tawakal aje lah. ;/
SO NOW ..... its time to list done the things-to-do on hols ;
frstly, and the most importantly - get a gooooooooood sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep. eyes bags can be worst than this already. i feel like a zombie walking around humans on earth.
2. facial - pimples are eve-ry-whe-re now. its literally covering my whole cheeks. My Goodness! i cant even barely look in the mirror anymore nowaday, ill get 'ghost bums' looking at myself. bahh. neeeeed too go facial faasssttt.
3. gym gym gym! - neeeeeeed to strt exercising again man. my butt and tummy are growing rapidly. although according to some people - i have no butt. like hello! u should see this big bum on my back eh. annnd seluar beli from blog pon sudah x muat. hahaa. dammn it. plus, i hve been eating like a p**. gila makan x nak kalah. bleergh.
4. shopppinnggggg - despite the insufficient amount of money that is left to last the month, i still have the urge to shop okay. lama gila x pampered myself with pretty clothes! ;( i feel so ugly now. haha.
5. room cleaning - sigh. i honestly dont know how to do this. i think studyng Stats is easier than this. i reaaally dnt know where to put my junks. throw it away? sayang pula. sell it? ada ke org nak beli? sigh. i need to get rid of it before we move out.
6. sleep , tidur, sleep and tidur.
7. watch movies that ive left out due to finals. ngehngeh.
8. sleep again.
9. a part time job perhaps? hahah. we`ll see, we`ll see.
i think that is enough for now. i shall update it again soon.
so, GOODBYE SEMESTER 3.
and, HELLO HOLIDAY !! :))
ps : I MISS YOU ALREADY. ;(
- Location:roomy
- Mood: grateful
- Music:Be With You - Akon
Fist and fore most,
HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY AFIQAH AZALAN !!
dah besar pnjg dah die ye. dah boleh kawin dah ni ye. ishishhhhh. jangan nakal lebih lebih tau. (okay, i sound like an old Makcik)
aaaaanyyyway, i wish you all the best in life. Sorry cant celeb so much with you today, BLAME QMT. later later we go main kite sama sama okayy. ;)
my brains really need to be shut down real soon. its going craazzzy already. i shall experience a mental breakdown if this finals drag longer. to make it worse, jiran rumah sebelah is doing some renovation ; all the drillsssss and hammmeerringgg !
MY GOODNESS. ITS BLOODY SATURDAY LAH OK. YOU ARE NOT SUPPOSE TO WORK ON SATURDAYS, AND DRILLING THE BLOODY DINDING.
GV THIS LADY SOME PEACE PLS !
BAAHHHHH. STRESSFUL NAK MAMPUS.
No wonder my pimples are everywhere now. argghh. another stressful stuff. cant wait for finals to end. after Stats are over, we have another 4 days of hard-stressful-work to go through. com'on Bitches. i know we could do it ! haha.
and after that, only God knows how happy i would be. have lots and lots of stuff to do! especially cleaning up my room and throw away all the junk that i have been collecting for the past 10yrs in this house. awhh, im gonna miss you room :')
oklahh. nak tido lah. pfft. bye.
Ps : why do i always get dissapointed? you knw yourself that its not a good feeling , kan? SIGH.
- Location:roomy
- Mood:
cranky - Music:-
AAAHHHHH.. FINALLY GENERAL INSURANCE IS OVER.
mental and emotional condition are badly damaged due to this subject. but i am so GLAD its over man. FIUH ! and luckily it was not so hard. though there are a few questions that i am not confident about, but hey. it cant be perfect can it? well actually it can. i kwn some people could answer it flawlessly. oh well, at least im satisfied with wht i did. so lepas ni, TAWAKAL sajalah.
and that means, two down, and TWO MORE TO GO. BAHHHH.
the next paper is STATISTICS. daaaym. hvnt start anythng yet. to make it worst, i have forgotten every single daymmmn thng. from the frst chapter to the last one. AIYOO. another week of full studyng mode. takpe takpe. 2 more weeks left. then mua is FUH-REEE !
Can partay all night, without feeling guilty. kan kan Kaklong and Dy ? heeeehe.
ok lah. saya dah lapar. nak cari food. and then tgk tv. and the maybe go lepak. and tidur. haha! no more baca insurance! YEAH !
- Location:roomy
- Mood:
dorky - Music: -
my head feels like EXPLODING !
F YOU , GENERAL INSURANCE.
haihhh. tak berkat dah ilmu yang dah masuk. harhar.
i still dont understnd whyyyy we have to memorize, literally the whole book. kan?
after finals are done, and then wht? see, see. i bet no one could answer tht. haha. x delah. i know its for our future sake jugak. bla bla. boooring.
anyhow. im tired. i am just plain tired. but i stil got a few more chapters to go. how lah? i want to rest already ;(
to make it worst, Mr is sleeping. YOU ARE ACTUALLY ASLEEP! MY GOD!
you promised to text me as soon as the movie ends. but tht was like 1 and a half hour ago. i tried calling you. but why am i not surprised that no one answered. sigh. SIGH.
anyone, i swear to you, if you call me now - you`ll be my next partner! so cepat cepat talipon 012 ------- !
hahah.
ok ok. got to stop talking crap. and..... sleep? maybe i should do tht. haihh. and hv i mentioned that im hungry? yes, im hungry. is there anyone nice enough and bring me to mamak now? its only 1.20 am. malam masih muda :))
if only . . .
if only . . . . . . . . .
oh diam lah.
bloody hell !
i want food !! i think this hunger is making me cranky tak pasal pasal. adoyai. and oh, you tidur pon is one of the cause jugak. pfft.
- Location:roomy
- Mood: cranky
- Music:Lady Gaga
BEL WAS LIKE .. . . . . . . . . . . . . BAAAAAAAHHH !!
am i that dumb? or was i that blur? or am i just plain NOOB.
cant stop thinking about it though. GOT-TO-STOP-THINKING-ABOUT-IT !
AND MOVE ON WITH THE NEXT PAPER WHICH IS INSURANCE ; WITH 9 WEEKS OF NOTES TO MEMORIZE.
SHIIIIIT !!!
- Location:roomy
- Mood:
blah - Music:NOISE.
okay lets update update and update !
im not actually in the mood to update, but leaving my journal so long feels not right.
anyway, ill just cut to the chase.
1. class is over ! thank Goodness.
2. AKON WAS THE BOMB! i reaaaally want to write more about this, unfortunately the mood is not there. all in all, i knw it could be better, if only.. but naah, at least i got to go. so wtv. ill just let it pass.
3. Finals is reaaaaaally close. my frst paper will be on the 30th.
4. Dy is back to Cyber. no more gossip-shisha sessions. damnnn. i neeeeedd to talk to you lah. sigh.
5. got to strt studyng real fast, and most importantly Insurance with 9 chapters that need to be memorized in less than 6 days? wtf.
well, that is all i guess.
sigh. i am just exhausted.. and i dnt knw wht im actually tired of.
i feel so lembik.
i feel so drained.
i feel so . . .
i feel so I-DONT-WANT-TO-DO-ANYTHNG-ANYMORE.
U
i dnt neccesserily need to be an 'anak raja' to know what i want, and have my own rights, just so you know.
and now, i really know what i want. no more trying. no more lies. mo more. please understnd.
- Location:roomy
- Mood:
numb - Music:Taking Bck My Love - Ciara and Enrique
WOAH. our insurance class is over man. today was our last class. and we got our carry marks. unfortunately its not very satisfying. sigghh what to do. i just have to struggle harder for finals. PFFT. anyhow, cant believe that my 3rd semester is going to end soon. so im left with 3 more semester to go! daamn. my friends in Segamat will be finishing thier dip next sem already. double damn. tak apalah... age is just a number. kan? haha. i stil feel the 'youngest' among my friends here. kan kan? :P
speaking of them, here's a recent pic of us in our EPL class. biasa lah, while waiting for the lect we cam-whore sekejap.
presenting Ani, Ati and Ika.
Sincerely, THNKS to them my days in class are well occupied with laughter. :))
nexxxxxxxxxxxxxxxt,
MrPilot is coming 'home' this weekend. better still he`ll be arriving tmr morn! hoho. initially he will be coming bck next week, buuuuut this week his futsal x jadi pulak, so he will be here this weekend as well. yay :)
oklah. dah malas. hilang mood.
bye.
nexxxxxxxxxxxxxxxt,
MrPilot is coming 'home' this weekend. better still he`ll be arriving tmr morn! hoho. initially he will be coming bck next week, buuuuut this week his futsal x jadi pulak, so he will be here this weekend as well. yay :)
oklah. dah malas. hilang mood.
bye.
- Location:roomy
- Mood: blah
- Music:Climb - Miley Cirus
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